Saturday, June 28, 2008
mings was walking down town with her
rather old sch mate (2yrs and counting)
nu qiang ren(muscle women in chi) singning
where they witness
women with special children with special needs
people who were limping
beggers on the streets
tt made the walk v. hard to handle
cause the images refuse to go away
mings was extremly displeased with herself
when she was thinking in her head
"whoa im so much better than them"
"so much luckier"
"why did god make me luckier than some ppl"
she wanted to kick herself
for being so elitist
mings turned to singning and
poured her heart out
and sing brought mings back to reality
"in this world such things always happen"
another setback
my favourite tv show host , ms oprah winffrey (spelt correctly?)
has a twisted view on christianity
i love her shows and her personality
i belive that she is inherently not a bad egg
and i just cant do anything abt it
i want for her to experience the love
that god has showered upon me
until todae
i found out that since i have no financial means
or te power to change anything
the ans is just to pray
heyy ppl we realli need to get down to pray
and theres so many things to pray about
so many needs
so little prayers
actually i kinda dun like to pray
cause i always thing im only talking to
nothingness
however aft the whole uni saga
ive learnt to trust more
on my heavenly father
im not perfect
my ways may hurt someone
out there even if i dun
intentionally plan for it to happen
but dun dis my haeavenly father
because i havent been a good example
i wish u all the best
rainbow;
6:03 AM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Cui msged me something really random
It went
“Mings!! I miss studying together. Haha…random…”
And its been 8 mths since we last mugged? haha
tt msg sent bouts of sporadic memories slapping
And zooming through my head
Mugging is SUPPOSED to be dreaded
It’s universal
But ive NV had such a fulfilling mugging session
with cui and the ppl whom were attracted to our mugging table !
haha
mugging tgh kept us awake
mugging tgh helped us discover things
we nv knew we didn’t know
Mugging helped us discover each others idiosyncrasies
But most importantly
All these things would not fall in place
If I had another study buddy=)))
Thank you cui !
Mugging was fun cause
No.1
We had such a beautiful ambience
To study in
Place no1 :overlooked the esplanade and marine bay
(dun tell u where haha ..later u find throngs of student scrambling
There to study too!)
That’s the place we watched fireworks in real life
On National day with calvin while mugging
Glorious splendor I tell you
With kids screaming in glee at the background
=)))
Place 2 :The hub
The place we studied from 7 in the morn till 9 at night?
The hub is a place in AC
Where u freeze ur butt off
But u get to meet people whom you never knew
Existed in school
Eg. Legendary study gods who score all As at prelims,the jocks
The artsie ppl ,bimbos,the choir ppl who talk like they are the only ones
In the hub ,models,celebrities in sch,nerds.gangs
Reason no.2
We had community
=)))
Cui invited my friends while I invited mine
In the end friends of friends came to know each other
And because random ppl sat with us
Their randomness became familiarity over time
Its just amazing to see how relationships can take shape
While mugging
I tell u it must be cui’s beautiful personality =)))
Over last sat I met up with my roomie frm ac
And later with my cell
I realized I kept asking them abt wheather witty ppl exist
In ntu and wheather they have personality or not
I realize that ive been hoping for my life at ntu
To be filled with ppl like cui , paul, marcus
And the list goes on
I wish for the same familiarity
The AC SPRIT!(clovis says our sch is haunted ..now u know what he is talking abt)
So much so that I wish everyone was like them
Haha
Yes what an idiot again
Hahah but
I REALLI MISS THEM !
Everyone deserves the right not to be compared to others mings=)
Rem tt
rainbow;
7:45 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Grace !(no im nort shouting out for grace ang my co-leader)
I was just questioning myself
What did I do right to secure a place at ntu
My spanking personal statement? my letter to the dean?
And my bro shouted
GOD
Haha
Oh yeah what a idiot I have been
Seriously …my grades are kinda far frm the cutoff
Ive always asked god if my religion was born out of a fable
And if miricles are just strokes of luck
Luck=miricles????
I mean how often do u hear your non-christian friends exclaim
IM SO LUCKY
Now I know miricles are frm god
The voices I heard in my head
In my chem. Examination when I was so
tempted to write my last 3 words
I heard
”honor me and I will honor u”
When
And when ive been fearing the kind of results ill get
I heard”until now u have not asked anything in my name
, ask and you shall be fulfilled”(something like tt)
And when I finally asked god
He replied
“it will come but it would take a long time”
And when I was rejected
He sent angel(how appropriate)
And she said
“you will definitely get it”
At that point I tot she was crazy or a lunatic
Last of all he gave me peace when I asked for it
I stopped worrying since may?
When ive been fearing since I blacked out for my first paper
Till may when I finally found peace within myself
And found my direction again
With god I am nothing
any wae
was reading zx's blog
haha his puppy is called kobe
hmmm sounds delicious
no wonder ppl eat dogs mabey cause they
have names like
milo, creme brule
for their puppies
haha
MMMMMMmmmm yummy
rainbow;
9:25 PM
Friday, June 13, 2008
dear god
mings is at the cross roads
she doesnt want such things to happen if its not your will
somehow this time things are different
and mings wonders if its your will
mings only wanna go oon the route u choose lord
if the decision is not in line with yours
may all the dreams, wishes and hopes dissapear
ahmen
so hard lord so hard
help me FATHER =)))
i just talked to paul !
thks paul
aniwaes i wanna talk to cui so bad
but she s in m'sia=(
AHHH cui are u ok ???
rainbow;
8:33 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
everything is faster with emails
there are so many enquiries
but human effort cant meet up with
the emails pace
for every job that i quote
theres prolly 50 emails out there that are on
queue for my immediate attention
but i learnt alort theese few days
=))) rather pleased actually
since theres nv ending job
why not do what ever u can handle properly
error -free so everyone wld be happy
and no one can complain=)
MINGS rox
rainbow;
8:01 AM
